Sometimes life....

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Sometimes life is dreaming and hoping for big things and looking at your spouse and children with awe and gratitude. I can feel the joy bursting out of me. Everything feels bright and warm and like the comfort of your soft, warm bed. And.. Sometimes life is monotonous, folding clothes, changing diapers, and washing the same cracked mugs over again.. teaching the same concepts 100 times to little people who probably didn’t hear you. Like a cycle and you’re stuck on repeat. And then.. Sometimes life is brutal and relentless and you can’t catch your breath and you can’t catch a break and your three year old has you feeling completely defeated. Again. And you feel that postpartum body is failing you and there is only so much you can do. Sometimes life is just plain hard and it tries to suck the joy out of you. 
But! Regardless of which of these lives I’m living today, how I look or what I’m feeling.. I know that this life is beautiful. This life has worth. Even if I’m “only” a stay at home Mom with no plans for a career. Even if...... and despite all of the hardships, this life has joy and meaning and favor and an eternal purpose! I can sing on the hard days knowing that. Thank you Jesus, for giving me THIS life with MY people. I can sing of His faithfulness and fullness even when I don’t feel it. 

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